It's been quite a while I must confess and man am I glad to be typing again! again as always it has been a emotionally challenging few months for me as I had to face some hard reality that was in a way inevitable I suppose.
But that'a all in the past, let by gone's be by gone's. look to the future and keep hoping. "Hope" something I used to be really good at till it's relative positivism and optimism was heartlessly torn away from me. I try to hope and hope for the better but it all seems in vain, its all till the next big life changing experience to come and go and leave you scared and broken or strong and renewed' now all I "hope" is for the latter.
But as time goes by you can feel a tiny flicker of change, not enough to change the way you feel, but enough to have hope for the concept of hope. That's when you make an effort to pick up what ever sanity you have left and decide to carry on, as you keep that up the decision turns into an desire to carry on and that desire makes you want to share your experience and help others carry on.
I suppose that is the cycle you get down, you get back up and you keep going till you hit the next bump. Yep! there is bound to be a next bump, to think the road is smooth and straight is foolishness, even for a care free, free spirit! the fact is, face it there is going to be that next bump. It could be trivial or it could be devastating..
In any case you hit the bump you fall down, complain for a while blame the road maintenance and get bored and move on.
